can't write

Since I can remember I've kept journals, diaries, secret notebooks...call it what you want. But then people started to not trust me (for their own stupid reasons) and read them, to better find out who I was and what I was thinking. As if they couldn't just ask me and confront me. So I decided to start a blog where my thoughts are out in the open since I have shit to hide, plus I can't write fast enough to keep up with my thoughts. I often have so many thoughts that I like to share with people. Sharing it on facebook sounds like I'm complaining, twitter is dumb to share ideas and tumblr I use only to look at pictures.

I think the fact that people have read my diaries has greatly affected my desire for privacy. It's like I've "accepted the fact" that I'll never have privacy of anything. Hundreds of times I've pulled out a journal, opened it to a random page, and written the date. Nothing more, just the date. Maybe the word "I" or "today". Nothing comes out. It's definitely not writers block, its the fact that I fear someones going to read it. So fuck privacy, I made a blog.

So who am I? I'm a young, motivated, ambitious, down to earth, independent woman who likes to make videos/films blah blah blah. With a blog, I feel like I'm starting to take a step forward and getting comfortable with writing again, as I want to start writing more scripts/treatments. Well damn, that's about it for right now. Maybe I'll post 3 blogs/day, or none for a month. We'll see.

<3 D